Saturday, 26 November 2016

Unsaid words.

Feeling so good meet up with my secondary school friends tonight. 
Great endless conversations feat. chill night 
know that what's mean to stay, stay forever 
this is what I ask for.


 Things changed real quick around me. I guess what's life 
It's weird to feel that way at the beginning but I get it, I got it


The rule is no rehearsal. God is planning for us, we just need to do the following good show, for yourself.



'How's things going so far?' One of my college friend was asking me. 

 'It's getting fun and excited!... ' I answered positively. 
Yeah a part from that, it was. Another part of that I hope I hide it well.


To be honest here.

College life has been stressing me out lately.
I get to know a lot of peoples from different states

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So many people would be scared, if they saw in the mirror, not their faces but their character.

Reality hits.
Mostly I saw that happened in those who staying in hostel. They talk nicely to you at first because you have that use of value to them. You have a car, you can be their transport. How funny it is, when I realized. At time goes by, they slowly talking to you when they needed something, even worst they never. 

I didn't tell everyone in my college once bout this
I think the best solution is just keeping away silently, yeah.   


Moving on.


 Another part from that was the problem of teamwork.
I was sneaking crying about this. And that's the first time I cried in college because of you. Guess that you never notice it, I was so mad at your attitude please don't let me named you something start from B, that's rude. It was the second time you were doing the same mistake to challenge my limits. Almost every time whenever we were doing our building model please ask yourself what are you actually doing? I can clearly tell you here. You were on your phone or doing your uncompleted assignments, either. I don't understand! Why can't you complete on time but I could, yet you are not focus helping me in the building model too.

The mates from the other group are worrying me whether I could be completed on schedule, apparently yet you're not, I feel firmly that you are all count on me. That's the problem. I give you chances by chances, you disappointing every single time. I didn't say a word because I know once I broke out it can be out of control.

Please know that I did not speak does not mean I have no feeling at all. 
Please know that what I hate the most is start fighting.
Please know that everyone has their limits. 


I'm mad that you always had the excuse 'No time'. 
Lmfao I found it funny lol
No time is your personal problem, not mine. 
No time is not that excuse dude. I do have no time too. 

But did I told you once? No. I completed everything I said I done and I done your parts too. 

It sucks! Your words suck. 
You were keeping it for days till then you told me you had no idea what to do before the next day we going to meet in college. I was totally dumbfounded and replied you with my patience. (I'm losing my patience!) Do you even remember your part is to built the rooftop? Nah, I done it almost. 

At the first semester, we were grouped in the same team. Do you remember about one of the assignment of basic design? We decided to make a set lunch by recycle things. You weren't helping me to think how to built the bowl, I done it all by myself. From the begin till the end, you only helped me to cut the sewing thread as the noodles. During the process you kept messaging me asking about the process, do you knew that's really annoying? Luckily, we got a not bad score at that subject. 

My parents were asking me why the condition of my skin allergic was getting bad once at a month. I hide from them. Therefore you really make me feel like you are using me to get high score all way long.
Be fair to me please. I had enough. I'm human too, I'm not your pets. I can't stand anymore.


Here, I made a promise to myself. 
Starting from the next semester onward if there's needed to do group work assignment, you are blackisted.


That's all for today, goodnight my readers.

Wednesday, 26 October 2016

Staygone.


"And even though it's been a while, I sometimes still catch myself wondering what you're up to. Whose eyes you're staring into now and seeing galaxies, just as you once used to in mine." But whatever.

Thursday, 6 October 2016

My choice

How I spent my holiday. 


Living in my own space, 
Living in silence.


______________________


#M- 1.
Drawing

I shock myself doing things everyone told me that I can't.
Each girl has that one boy she will never lose feelings for. I think mine is still him, Connor Franta.
My first portrait ever. 


That night. Everything went so random, I sat in front of my desk and surfed my Twitter
I saw your latest tweet and I decided to make a portrait of you. I know it looks kinda weird.
 (So fucked up with the fluffy hair) Promise, I will do more practice. 
I'll show you my Magic.



D e t a i l s .

The reference.

M y  W o r k.







#M- 2.
Keepreading

Spend whole day in bookstore, sit down & read a book.


I found one of the author, Peter Su.
My first impression when I start reading one of his book, he is keen on music, love backpack travel, insist on his dreams. I get inspired a lot tbh go get his book to know more! I hooked on your every single words.
It reminded me that what's true meaning of falling down.


‘爱不能说也听不到,但当你靠近它的时候就会感觉到。’


Seriously, I have a thing for boys, with books. (If you got a weird hobby as reading we can be friends lol)







#M- 3.
Sleep24hours

Be a baby sleep earlier. Have my nap time too.


When was the last time I get in to bed at 10? Maybe was my primary school time, 
maybe was when I still don't know about Internet, or maybe was only when I'm sick. 

How sweet it is when someone constantly wish me, goodnight! 

My bad for not telling you guys earlier before you all had gone, 
I really appreciated that every single time, I love it that showed cares!,   
but somehow that everyone gets tired to do so. (unnecessary wish)
 I know right I should not force them to talk to me, 
but anyway thanks for wishing, that's more than enough.

Selfie yi xia.








#M- 4.
Latenightdrives

Random outing with my 95's homies,
I think that is just so called life.
It can't take so serious just like picked up the phone call, they came to your front door and pick you up 
Going without my identity card, driving license, jacket, power bank and blablabla, it so like a child. 
How insane? (Not worrying... ) 



A night,
it seems to be back in December.
the temperature was similar. 
That cold
That late
The taste of coffee.











#M- 5.
Date someone special.


Oh damn, how I wish we could meet everyday.
But in reality, we can't make it anymore. We both running, fighting for our future.
we had made up our mind the path we're moving forward to, searching for ourselves.
we are living the completely different field. But one thing has never change is keep cheering each other.

Stay in touch, as promised.
We don't have to keep messaging daily, but I know you'll always be there for me when I needed.









#M- 6.
Sortout

The most I hate to do was cleaning. It depends on my mood.
But this time my mood goes opposite lol,
Surprisingly, I discovered old stuff.
A popular camera from the early 1980s.
Dad's old love I guest?

That classic tho









#M- 7.
Morningrun.

People think I'm weird. Yeah weird the fuck outta of my way.


I miss woke up early at 4 jogging before my school hour, before I start my day. No more after graduated.
 After having college my body clock changed, I can't make it and knowing how fun was staying in bed till the last minute and RUSH to morning class! Is real fun especially driving to school. (professional racing driver wanna be)
   








#M- 8.
Breakfast


Make yourself a breakfast was always an excuse for the people running late to work/school.
to be honest I'm one of them, I could skip my breakfast with an excuse of laziness..
So, let's make yourself a good morning with PiZZZa.  










#M- 9.
Playsomeoldsongs






Wednesday, 5 October 2016

Krabi Getaway II






 











































  







































































Dropped by to capture pictures with the Monkeys. 
They were too adorable!